Monday, April 6, 2015

Am I My Brother's keeper?
 
Ephesians 4:15
"We will hold to the truth in love, becoming more and more in every
way like Christ, who is the head of his body, the church."
 
 
My Daddy 7/25/48 - 10/10/15
 
 
I have had a rough few months after losing my dad... and I haven't been here or posted any blogs. And for that, I am sorry.
 
My daddy went home to be with the Lord October 10th, 2015.
And I thought I was ok. I still say I am ok... But, I don't think I am. He was my world, my best friend, and my greatest support other than my first Father God.
 
 
My daddy was one of love.. My heart aches to know I can't call him today, or go visit. He taught me a lot in life. I was and am still his babygirl. He never let a morning go by, that he didn't wake me up with some silly teddy bear talking in a cute voice, giving me kisses, telling me how loved I was, then to drive off with me at the window watching, he'd look back and say "I Love You" in sign language. This was our sign, Always. And I'll never forget it. I'll never forget our long talks that ended with... "And remember, no matter what, Jesus loves you. Always look to him and trust Him" Most of the time during these talks. I had only heard about Jesus, I didn't truly know who he was. But from daddy passionately talking about him, I knew he was someone important. And daddy made sure to plant those seeds in my heart that would someday bloom.
 
 
Before he left, he got to meet his grandbaby Stormy. I'll never forget the day he picked her up and said, "I love you little girl" The first time he had ever met her. He left so much inspiration, and infulence for me to follow as well as my daughter who is too young to remember. But yet, she does. A heart, full of passion and life, that stands on Gods word.. will go on. Gods word, and the influence of people LAST!
I will never forget this night. They called to say my daddy was gone.. And Stormy, only 11 months old, sat and waved at her pepa, and couldn't understand why he wasn't waving back, or telling one of his many repeated stories about love, life, history, music and Jesus. She touched his hand gently as to say, I love you Pepa... and my heart sank. Weeks later, she touched his picture everyday for awhile.. She knew who this man was. He inspired her. Just as I will teach her about Jesus. She will know, He's an important man of Love.. and Eternal life, and the most precious and hardest gift ever given...




 
 
There are no answers for pain in this lifetime, but how we learn to move forward in life and cope. Trusting in the Lord to comfort us and bless us. This is where we have to plant our feet and grow.
 
My doctor thought it was a good idea to put me on an Anti Depressant, and this messed me up pretty bad. I actually ended up having to come off of it and the withdrawals were so bad I had to do it in an inpatient hospital away from my daughter. (15 months) This was one of the hardest things for me to do. But God had a plan and still does.
 
 
 
 
I am fully off of the medication, but still on a journey. I am about to read a book "When God writes your love story." I have no clue where my life will take me. But I do know, that with my trust and faith in Jesus Christ. He is leading me. And I cannot do it without Him, nor will I ever try again.
 
 
 
Today, I have chosen a blog about parenting. And dedicating it to my daddy. He taught me about God and raised me as best as he could, and when the time was right, he had to let go. There is a time in our life, perhaps many times in our life, we have to let go. Even when we don't know what's ahead. We have to trust that God, our creator, knows what He is doing.
 
How do you show respect to parents, and how much should parents run your life?
 

 
 
What is a person's responsibility toward a grown sibling, a friend, a family member? Should you lend him or her money? Help them with constant marriage problems? Always bail them out?
 
 
 
 
Are you wondering how you can show love and respect and still maintain healthy boundaries?
 
 
 
Take my husband for instance. I am always in Gods Word, doing devotions, praising, praying, and sometimes I'll get onto him for choosing to watch TV after a long hard day at the office, and coming home to help me with the baby and the house where he can, and on weekends, working on my never ending To Do Honey Do list.... I would rather him follow in my footsteps and be in Gods Word. But I cannot force him to do anything he doesn't want to do. If I force my hand on anything, what do you think he will do? Right, run the other way.
 
I have to remember, to show love and respect, while still maintaining a healthy relationship. I can stay in Gods Word and lead by my life.. Not preaching and playing some holier than thou attitude. My job, His command, first and most important command is to LOVE. It's simple..
 
 
 
Perhaps, the most loving thing we can do is to give a loved one responsibility for his or her own life. I try to ask myself, If love wants the best for another person, than what would love do?
It would trust the creator of love, to know what He is doing. I give my loved one to you Lord, and I will pray for Him or Her everyday, but I know that you have a plan for them. My job is to love.
 

 
One mother, who realized her constant bailing out of her grown son was actually crippling his growth and maturity, wrapped up a note that read,
"This is the best and most difficult gift I have ever given to you. Enclosed you will find a check, the last one you will receive from me. This will cover your first and last month's rent and your bills for one month, but you also see that I have enclosed a set of apron strings. I am giving you the gift of being responsible for your own life, so I have cut the apron strings. Please enjoy this gift. All my love, Mom.
 
Real love makes the hard calls, does the brave thing, and encourages people to step up and step out. Love gives generously from a willing heart in a way that encourages responsible maturity. Sometimes the most treasured gift is the most difficult to give and impossible to wrap.
 
Now that I have a 16 almost 17 year old, a step son who is almost 22, and now a little one only 15 months old, I have learned what it means to let go and pray that they make the best decisions and stand by closely for when they may need counsel or advice. But my first instruction is to always look to God, as my daddy taught me. And though he is gone now, his voice still lingers in my ear. To love and trust in a man named Jesus. He has never failed me, and never will. I miss my daddy so much it hurts. But he raised me right, and set my feet on a path that could not fail.
 

 
For you Daddy, Thank you for giving me the gift of life, through my birth and through Jesus' birth, death and resurrection. I will see you again one day soon. But right now, my job is still here on this earth, my temporary home. To love....
 


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